7 days into this pre-op diet and everyone and everything around me looks like a chuck roast. Initially, I was kidding when I told my parents I wanted to eat them. That was Day 2. It's now becoming less of a joke and more a cry for help. I will admit to not being "perfect" on this diet, but if the surgeon thought that a 200 plus pound overweight guy could eat roughly 900 calories a day for 12 days he was as delusional as I am at the moment. Make no mistake, most days have been right at that number, but a few days I have been around 1300 calories. Stuffed! Not. In no way am I complaining or feeling any regret about this. I simply have never been more excited about anything-EVER in my life.
So yeah, I'm doing this little blog. I'm not sure how regularly I'll be posting but I want to be as open as I can about this entire process from start to finish. Reading others' blogs about their experience has profoundly helped me, so I will pass it on-pay it forward, etc. Come to think of it, there really never will be a "finish." That's the old way of dieting. Speaking of 'dieting' how did I SO fail at dieting or whatever the accepted term for healthy eating is these days? How did I let myself so regrettably, so embarrassingly get to a weight well over twice what I should be? I'm certain it will be years before I will fully or even mostly understand this. All my life I have beaten myself up and over the head with guilt and frustration. The emotional ride that comes along with the struggle to lose weight and keep it off is some ride. And while I was stuck in the mentality for so long that I could lose the weight "on my own" and keep it off, I am stuck no more! I not only want the help that the lap band can offer me, I need it. And I accept it with a whole lot less guilt than after eating McDonald's for lunch and dinner 3 days in a row. Anyone who knows anything about the lap band will tell you that it is not a device that eliminates discipline and accountability. My eating and exercise habits are about to undergo a drastic change. And so am I. And what a much more satisfying ride this next phase of my life is going to be.
Can't wait. Talk soon.
You'll do great Joel!! It's not easy but is most definitely worth it! Thoughts and prayers are with you, it's a journey not to be taken lightly. Still 5 years later my brain tells me I want to eat more than what I can, but my stomach tells me otherwise when I start eating..
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ReplyDeleteYou're in for an incredible journey! So excited for you and hope you enjoy it all...
ReplyDeleteTracie, I had no idea you lost that much weight. Wow. That is awesome. I anticipate the same brain-stomach battle:)
ReplyDeleteStephanie, your experience, and huge success is highly motivating for me. For those of you who don't know, Stephanie had the lap band procedure in July(I think July) of 2009 and as of a couple weeks ago had lost 125 lbs. Her blog is amazing. Check it out if you want to feel motivated.
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You'll do great Joel. I have a friend here that had the lap band and she looks great. You will do just fine! Keep the positive spirit! Love ya.
ReplyDeleteThanks a lot, Angie. Thanks to all.
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