This journey(hate that word) brings with it a lot of emotional ups and downs. There's often guilt, failure along with success and pride. Hard to admit it but I have been battling a lot of depression the past year and a half or so. My parents being terminally ill is the biggest outside influence on that. But I also must admit that at least in my opinion, my state of mind is controlled not from the outside, but from within. I had this surgery to help me become a better, healthier person inside and out.
Knowing full well that being physically active is the best remedy for depression, I started an exercise program on Monday. Just finished my 12 minute walk and 3 sets of different exercises with my 25 and 15 pound dumbbells. Want to get up to a minimum of a half an hour a day walking and add a few more weight exercises. Plenty for me. It's incredible how in 3 days I have gone from feeling low and sorry for myself to feeling more positive and excited about life than I've been in a year and a half.
Exercise kids!
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
Saturday, October 15, 2011
I've Lost a Jennifer Lopez
Just over a year out of surgery and am down 119 pounds. Had hoped for a little more by now, but while my eating habits have changed, there are other areas in which I fail, and fail often. It is a little frustrating to be eating with such restriction, but it is anything BUT frustrating to be wearing paints 8 sizes smaller.
This experience carries with it a lot of attached pain. It's impossible to be anywhere nearly as excited as I would be without witnessing the demise of my Dad. It's with me every second of the day and has me in a bit of a rut. Have not been exercising lately at all and I know how important that is for my physical and mental well being. I don't just want to shrink, I want to be healthier as well.
As a single guy who works out of my apartment most days, it is easy to get stuck in the negative thoughts. My friends and family-what would I do without your words of encouragement? As unlucky as I feel at times, you remind of how lucky I actually am, because I have you.
I hope to be closing in on 250 ounds down this time next year. I figure by then I'll be a scratch golfer, highly photogenic, and will be able to charm(con) some unlucky girl into being mine:)
Talk soon.
This experience carries with it a lot of attached pain. It's impossible to be anywhere nearly as excited as I would be without witnessing the demise of my Dad. It's with me every second of the day and has me in a bit of a rut. Have not been exercising lately at all and I know how important that is for my physical and mental well being. I don't just want to shrink, I want to be healthier as well.
As a single guy who works out of my apartment most days, it is easy to get stuck in the negative thoughts. My friends and family-what would I do without your words of encouragement? As unlucky as I feel at times, you remind of how lucky I actually am, because I have you.
I hope to be closing in on 250 ounds down this time next year. I figure by then I'll be a scratch golfer, highly photogenic, and will be able to charm(con) some unlucky girl into being mine:)
Talk soon.
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